Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Gotta be honest here

I'm still struggling here.

Life here in Dillingham is a little tougher to adjust to than it was in Kotzebue.

I'm trying to sort it all out.

Maybe I shouldn't, but that's just what I do.

I don't think it's just me either.
The boys seem to be struggling too.

We all seem to be struggling with connections or lack thereof.

I thrive on friendship. I love girlfriends.
I have always been blessed with AMAZING girlfriends.
Can't seem to make connections here and not for lack of trying.

I really miss my BFF's.
One is my sister. We chat often, but I still really miss her.
The other is a friend that I was blessed to meet 5 years ago.
Three years ago we really connected.
I miss her so much that every time we talk I cry.
So I've avoided calling her.
That hurts.

Any words of wisdom?

Sunday, February 14, 2010


Double digits today and it's bittersweet.

Dear Ben,

My sweet valentine.
Happy tenth birthday!
What a year it has been for you.
You have accepted this adventure like a true champ.
I am amazed at how you have adapted and flexed to both of our new towns.
I love watching you grow into a great boy who loves and cares for others.

My prayer for you in this coming year is that you will continue to grow more in love with Jesus and care deeply for your family.

Put on your Full Armor of God Ben, so that you may withstand the ways of the world as you grow into an amazing big boy!

Love you bunches,


Standing on the tundra in Kotzebue with gramma.
September 2009